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[destenebres]

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[theosopher]

[ It was heartbreaking, knowing that he caused this. But Alvis had to put aside his self-pity, or the urge to apologize endlessly. Words had already been said, to repeat them would be meaningless. Instead, he held his hands supportively, and nodded in understanding. ]

I was too. It was the first time since I was an initiate that I misgauged myself. Has this ever happened to you before?

[destenebres]

[Alvis had already apologized and Armand had already accepted (more because it clearly meant a great deal to Alvis than because he felt Alvis had done anything worth apologizing for). There was no need to do so again, that wasn't why he'd made that little admission.]

No. I didn't have relationships like this [He squeezed Alvis' hand gently] with humans, back home. So it... never came up.

[theosopher]

[ Well. Armand had been new to humans in this situation, and Alvis had been new to vampires. A mistake was bound to happen, wasn't it? He didn't mention it outloud, only because he didn't want to make it look like he was trying to remove responsibility. He had a feeling neither of them would accept that, so it was all about moving beyond it. ]

We learned the hard way. However you want to carry this relationship going forward, I'll do as you request. But know that I have no ill feelings towards you. It was incredible... [ Before he blacked out. ]

[destenebres]

[Perhaps such a mistake was inevitable, given the circumstances. And perhaps he ought to just be grateful that there was no lasting harm done, and that they had a chance to learn from it at all.]

I don't want that to happen again. [He can say that much with certainty, at least.] But as I said, I... don't have much experience with this sort of thing. So I wouldn't really know how to go about ensuring that it won't.

[Much as it might gall him to admit it, to cede control even in so small a way... it had to be done, if he didn't want to make the same mistake all over again.]

[theosopher]

I now know what to look out for, at least. I've never been known to repeat the same mistake, sexually. I trust that if i use my safeword, you'll stop, and I promise that I'll never forget to use it again.

[ He gave his hand a gentle squeeze, then brought it to his lips to kiss his knuckles. ]

You've taught me a valuable lesson, and in turn I'll teach you one. We'll get it right, with practice. If you want to.

[destenebres]

Of course; the moment you say the word, I'll stop. [He would have this last time, too, and he could wish that Alvis hadn't forgotten, but it wouldn't change anything.

His lips quirked briefly into a small, sweet smile at the kiss, and his fingers tightened just that little bit around Alvis' in turn.]

And I do want to.

[theosopher]

I'm glad.

[ There was a short pause as he simply gazed at his friend, then he smiled slightly. ]

Would you like to meditate with me, or go for a drink?

[destenebres]

I'm afraid the drinks would be wasted on me. [Unless they go to Pandemonium, and he's still feeling far too raw to want to surround himself with people.] So, meditation it is.

[And, because he's never actually meditated before in his life...] You'll just have to show me how.

[theosopher]

I'd be happy to.

[ ooc: Which is a nice place to fade-to-black? <3 ]

[destenebres]

[ooc: Yep, works for me!]